Bof. Why couldn’t I feel more for the Kiwi? We’re still friends.

We talked on the phone for a couple of hours yesterday, and I wish it could be more. I wish I could feel more.

In the meantime, I’ll try and learn what the Lord would have me learn. I’m going to be the best me I can, and hope that I’ll eventually find a companion to journey along with.

...seeing Adam’s picture has really thrown me for a loop. It has me hoping for he impossible. He was my favorite; he had my heart. The reality may be, though, that he’s not good enough for me. It would take a special person to end up with me. Looks aside, I’m pretty awesome.

I just wish he were who I am looking for.