My Heart

My heart. I hope he looks for me.
I said goodbye, but
I really just want him. 

Silly me.
I thought by saying bye to him, I would magically be ok to talk/flirt with other guys.
...It didn't work. He is still too often on my mind.
I'd rather talk with him. Get to know him. Have fun with him.
I don't even know if he's been getting/seeing my messages.

I can't even express the jumble of thoughts and feelings tangled up inside.

...He was my dream come true, except better because he was real.

I'm so stuck.

I've got two interviews tomorrow, though. *fingers crossed* distractions that pay. ...I'm going to turn into a workaholic. :/