I’m packing. It’s hard. We’re burying my dad on Wednesday, and then my family—who has helped me keep everything at bay—will be going their separate ways. I’m going to have a lot of loneliness, and sadness to cope with. Amid all of that, I need to find a job. 

I don’t know why I’m going back to idaho. I do know that hard times refine us. I have felt that these last few months. I have hope for the future, and I’m trying to not let fear and doubt get to me. I really just need a hug.

I still really want to talk with Adam. It’s so weird.

Update: I went dancing this afternoon. I REALLY miss it. I want to get better, and I want to continue dancing. I don’t know how to make it happen in idaho, so. We’ll see if I DO stay in Idaho.